I wanted to speak for
those who could not speak for themselves. That was the answer to the
question asked of me a few years ago back in New York: Why had I become a teacher to immigrant children and then a speech pathologist to brain-injured adults? And as that answer escaped my lips, I
realized where that yearning was born. In Margariti, my adopted Greek village. I’ve known that feeling for years. The frustration of
wanting to communicate—my way, with my words—instead of through fractured and
inadequate translation.
Mary Smith, the author of one of my favorite books, No More Mulberries, said "people thought I was
aloof, stuck up . . . If only they understood the agonies of the socially
inept." When I read it, I thought, Yes! And then add to that a different culture
and different language! That’s the conundrum of being the American-me in
Margariti.
In a group of
four, (myself and my husband/translator, Nick, counting as two of that four), I can follow the conversation, though I might ask a question about the foot
injury I think you're discussing when you are actually talking about the octopus you caught at
the beach. But with such a small group, I feel like I have a fighting chance. And even better if you subtract one person. With three of us, my understanding is a bit
clearer and I might venture to add something to the conversation, even if you
turn to Nick and say, “Huh? What’s she saying?” I’m no longer
silenced by that comment. I still might try to repeat my message without his help. And I
can almost understand most of what's being said to me if the speakers don’t have food in their mouths or mumble too much.
But conversation one-on-one with a kind conscientious person is the most rewarding. I feel I can speak more freely – even if you have
no idea what I’m saying. For this
reason, I enjoyed my mother-in-law, Chevi, when she was alive. I didn’t realize
what Chevi was doing until my English-speaking niece pointed it out to me. I
knew that Chevi was speaking slower than most people and that she was cognizant
enough to put long pauses between words and use gestures, but it was my niece,
Maryanna, who pointed out that she was speaking a kind of ungrammatical
telegraphic speech with simple words. And that act, dear people, was brilliant. It allowed us to have actual conversations. I felt like a true participant, even if she didn't always understand me. Perhaps this came from the fact that she married a man who did not speak her
village dialect. Thus, she seemed to understand my plight.
So, dear Greek villagers, I extend to you
now, an ongoing apology, if I’ve seemed aloof or ungrateful in
any way. I am just overcome sometimes with the chaos of too many Greek speakers and an anxiety that chops the Greek words in my brain like garlic in tzatziki. I've found that a glass of ouzo sometimes puts the words back in order. But two glasses tend to fuse them together in a useless ball of dough. The truth is, I appreciate your recognition, your greetings, your well wishes--always.
Following
is an excerpt from The Nifi in which Chevi is
faced with the prospect of not being able to communicate with her future husband and having her father as a not-so-accurate translator.
Chevi, an unmarried woman, a
shaky-legged fawn among hungry wolves, approached her yard one morning hunched
over with the weight of a mound of wood on her back. She did not hear the
unfamiliar voice until she was too close to avoid him. A stranger stood with
her father within the high walls of the courtyard, but they stopped speaking
midsentence as she rounded the corner.
Chevi registered their uneasy smiles
and she knew something was amiss, but what? She wondered. She moved closer and
let the wood fall from her back and then straightened up to her full
height—though it was no more than the mid-stone of the storeroom door. She met
their gaze with questioning eyes, looking from the stranger to her father.
Without addressing her, the two men resumed their conversation but they spoke
gibberish.
“He’s not from the
valley,” she thought and dismissed his presence.
The smaller pieces of wood needed to
be brought to the back room next to the fourno. Chevi loaded her arms and
walked toward the door, but the stranger stepped into her path and spoke. Her
arms were shaking with the weight and she did not know what this person asked
of her and why didn’t he just ask her father who appeared to know his
language?
“Get out of my way you idiot.” Chevi
spoke quietly as he continued to stand in her way and when she moved to the
right, he tried to clear a path for her to pass but he mistakenly chose to move
in the same direction, so they danced back and forth and the wood grew
heavier.
“May lightning strike you dead.” She
cursed him and swept past as the first cut branches began to fall from her
hands and the sound of their crashing to the floor as she entered the cooking
room sent her father running in to aid her.
“Father who is that?”
“No one, Chevi. Pick up the wood and
bring it to the cooking pile.”
“It is someone father.”
“He is here to buy some wheat.”
“Well, he’s an imbecile,” she thought and wondered where his sacks were and how he planned to
cart the wheat away.
Chevi's father returned to
the yard, to Pavlos' friend, Tomas. Pavlos had spoken well of him and
his bravery during the war. He looked strong and healthy, important
features for working the fields and providing grandsons to do the same.
Tomas rubbed his chin.
He liked the look of the man's daughter. She seemed to be shy and had
spoken so softly though he had no idea of what she had said. She appeared to be
someone he could mold to his liking. Yes, he was interested in this arrangement
and he told Chevi's father as much.
"But what was it
she was saying to me, John," he asked his future father-in-law.
"She said she thinks you are very handsome and will love you as a good wife should."
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Linda, thanks so much for the mention of No More Mulberries in your blog post. And your tweet, which directed me here. I'm off to download The Nifi.
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Mary, I appreciate the download but that is not why I did it. Your books, No More Mulberries and Drunk Chickens and Burnt Macaroni are in my opinion among the best. I completely identify with much of it and I think that is because a small village is a small village no matter where it is in the world.
Delete'Ach! To podi' Still laughing!! I'm the same too in a Greek speaking crowd - I just get sound bites, but not enough for a conversation. And then feel like I'm being stuck up and aloof, or at least seen that way, as these people know i can speak Greek. It often results in me offering to help wash up or go and get more drinks.
ReplyDeleteYes! This also can lead to drinking more than usual or overeating! LOL!
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